Pretender

I'm a pretender. I admit it.

I'm not a runner. I haven't really enjoyed running since I was on the track team in Junior High. I'm now in the pretending stage. I make myself get out and run now. I like being active and I consistently do exercise videos. I've even joined a gym a few times in my life (usually cancel due to cost more than use), but running was never my first love. I'd rather lace up my ice skates and play a hockey game than lace up running shoes.

However, over the last few years, I have completed 1 marathon and 3 half-marathons. I am training for another half coming up in September. I have finally come around to not dreading my running, but I can't say that I love it, yet. I do like what it does for my body, though.

I guess, Fake it til you make it rings true once again. I'm hoping that I will soon be able to say I enjoy running - then onto maybe 'love it'.

Things I am not good at

I am having a hard time believing it's March already. Where in the world did February go? My plan was to write at least once a month. So far, that hasn't happened. Maybe I can make up for it during the month of March. So, to start this month, I decided to use a writing prompt from Monday Listicles even though it's Wednesday.

Here goes:

Top Things I'm Not Good At

1) Completing projects. This is probably the thing I am the worst at. I like to start projects (sewing, crafts, remodels, etc), but I have a hard time finishing them. I think I like the process more than the finality of it all.

2) Keeping the house clean and tidy. I'm a slob. I admit it. I think I have hoarding tendencies too, which makes it quite hard to keep up on the daily little things that wind up being big things later.

3) Sharing ideas. I edit my thoughts continuously, so sharing what I think can bit a laborious. I will think I have a great idea, then I'll rethink it, edit it and then usually discard it. If I have the same (or similar) idea return more than once, I'll take that as a sign that I should go ahead and share. It's a very long, complicated process. (hopefully, trying to keep up on this blog will help that ;-))

4) Saying "No". I have a house full of items that I don't particularly want or need because of this. I also have the waistline to prove it.

5) Hand-eye coordination. This is a terrible thing to not have control of. It makes so many things very difficult. I like sports and participating in them. I however am not all that great at any of them because I have a very hard time matching what is happening with what I am supposed to be doing. (I also don't do anything the same way twice; holding a pencil, wielding a knife, shooting a puck, etc)

6) Listening. I always used to think I was a good listener, but then I realized that I am not. I can hear what you are saying, but will often be thinking of something else while you are talking or thinking of a comeback to say when there is a break.

7) Being on time. I like being on time. I just rarely am. I don't think I am more important than you, I have simply discovered that what happens in my head is not necessarily what happens in real time. I always have a plan and a specified time to leave so I make it on time, but for some reason I can lose 10 minutes from the door to the car.

8) Cooking without a recipe. As I mentioned before I rarely do the same thing twice, so I find it very difficult to cook without a recipe. I want the time I put into cooking to pay off and be delicious which makes recipes so very important to me which makes me a slave to my cookbooks and recipe files.

9) Making decisions. I don't ever want to be wrong, so if I don't make the decision then I cannot be blamed for it not going well.

New Year's Resolutions?...

Wow! I can't believe how long it's been since I last posted anything. I guess it's like almost all things I do. I start off good, get busy or lose interest not really sure which, get excited again, then get busy... It's a vicious cycle. But, I plan to change this a bit this year. I've decided to set a challenge, New Year's Resolution, a goal (whatever you want to call it) and post something at least once a month. (I was going to pick once a week, but decided that was a bit too challenging). 

Hopefully, I will decide I can find the time to manage at least one post a month if not more. I was hoping to be able to start this challenge on 1 January 2012, but 'life' got in the way of my best intentions (I hate that). What makes this blogging thing so challenging for me is I still am not quite sure what I want to blog about. I have many interests, lots of opinions, and a great deal of  responsibilities. Where do I start? How much do you want to know? How detailed should I be? Which of my interests will keep you reading? Does any of this even matter? What is the real purpose for writing this blog? It might just be the technology associated with journaling without pen and paper, yet I've never been very good about that. Maybe these are questions I should have asked myself before creating this blog, but I don't think I gave it that much thought. I just wanted to get started.

I've just decided that whatever my intentions were when I began, they don't really matter because as I change, grow and discover more about myself my blog will also (hopefully) change, grow and help express my discoveries.

So, here's to New Year's Resolutions (goals, in my book) and happy blogging...